. . . m y 1 s t l o v e . . .

I am tagged by AzurA.

Ahaaakss!!! So notti la u. the title is so “saspen”. How can I write this and publish it to the world wide. This is so aheemmmm story. Ehiksss!!! Before the tag was accepted, I ask a permission from myKinG to write the story, ye la… mana la tau kot2 tetiba dia terbaca my blog, then dia kecik ati ke apa ke sbb ana refresh balik kisah ni. Actually myKinG knows about it a to z. sebelum ana teruskan dgn cite ana, I just nak bgtahu that I am not a type that suka bercinta masa sekolah, dgn classmate or schoolmate. I felt this because sejak form 1 main cinta dgn budak sekolah, asik takkekal je sbb orang lain potong line. So, sampai form 3, mcm dah fedup je, so I decided no more love at school. Tapi tup tup, tetiba ‘cinta dtg lagi...’ so lets read my entry titled MY 1st LOVE.

I know my 1st love ni when I was in secondary school. Form 4 masa tuh. Kenal mamat ni sbb suka tgk kete dia. Actually dia stay kat2 umah ana, kira satu kawasan perumahan tu la. Dekat jugak, cuma blok je lain2. Mamat ni pakai kete wira sedan, kaler biru-purple metallic and of course dah modified jadi sporty. Ntah nape before this I am not interested kat kete2 ni… tapi ntah la.. suka tgk kete mamat ni. Haaa.. in the same time jugak, my angah pun dah pakai kete. Dah tu my angah ni kalau nak wat apa2 kat kete dia, dia mesti tanye ana. So, masa tu seronok la kan riki2 kete2 modified ni. One day, mamat tu lalu la depan umah. Kebetulan angah tgh basuh kete and ana kat dlm umah. Pastu dgr dia macam terjerit2 berborak. Apa lagi, ana pun intai ah. Sekali pandang, nampak kete mamat tu. hehehehe.. tapi ye la.. sbb dah suka tgk kete dia, ana pun kuar la kan.. pastu dari dlm kete, mamat tu senyum kat ana. Ana dgn notti nye senyum ah balik kat dia. (senyum je ni yang ye, takde jeling2 cam AzurA tuh). Tapi setakat tu je la. Lepas dia blah, ana dgn excited nye borak with my angah pasal dia. Hehehehe… abih. Then lagi, dulu ptg2 suka jugak lepak2 kat umah Chicky (shikin). So, bila duduk kat pagar umah kin tu kekadang mamat ni lalu. Hehehee… lebar le senyum. Tapi diulangi, senyum je la.

Dipendekkan cerita, kitorg 1st eye to eye met masa ana kat kedai FR Shoppe belakang umah ana. Masa tu pas maghrib. Masa tu ana tak ingat la ana nak beli apa, tapi masa tu ana kat cashier nak bayar barang2 ana and sambil2 tu ana borak2 la dgn kakak2 cashier tu sbb mmg kenal rapat pun dgn diorg. Tgh bergelak ketawa tu, tetiba ada satu kete, berenti betul2 depan pintu kedai tu. Dlm hati ana, macam kenal je kete ni. Tapi gasak ah. Pastu ada mamat masuk kedai. Beli air 100+ sebotol besar. Then ana pun pergi ke tepi kaunter tu sbb dia nak bayar, pastu dia tegur ana. I still remember his 1st word masa tegur ana tu. Ntah la kenapa ana ingat, tapi mmg ana ingat la.. maybe sbb dia 1st love kot. Dia tegur ana “hai, cantek rambut… rindu laaa saya” (mcm dlm iklan dulu2 tu). Tapi ana dian je, takrespon. Sbb mcm malas je nak layan. Ana still borak dgn kakak cashier yg sorg lagi tu. Pastu mamat ni ckp ana sombong. Ana still diam je. Ntah la… malas je nak layan kan. Then dia pun blah. Huuuhhhh selamat. Tiba2.. ponnn ponnnn… ada bunyi hon dr luar kedai. Kakak cashier tu mintak ana tlg tgkkan, dgn selamba nye ana gi jenguk. Pastu dr dlm kete, mamat tu panggil ana. Ana pun pegi je laa.. Cuma dlm ati tu merungut jugak la.. apa la mamat ni nak lagi. Dia kata dia nak resit. Adehhhh ntah apa2 la dia ni, beli air sebotol pun nak resit. Tapi what to do, customer is always right. So ana pun masuk balik dlm kedai, mintak akak tu resit utk mamat tu. Pastu ana suruh je kakak tu yg antar kat mamat tu, alahai… tetiba ada customer lain ak dtg, nak taknak, ana jugak kena antar resit kat mamat tu. Ok la.. gi la kat kete dia, bagi resit tu kat dia. Then dia suh tunggu jap. Dia amik pen, then dia write something kat resit tu. Dia pas balik kat ana. Oyoyo… number phone dia. Mobile and home number. Alaaa… nak buat apa ni kan. Sambil dia bagi resit tu balik kat ana, dia pesan suh ana call dia. And directly, ana ckp kat dia, saya taksuka la call org lelaki ni… pastu dia mintak no phone ana. Ana ckp takleh, nanti mak dgn ayah bising. Dia kata, kalau macam tu ana kena jugak call, kalau tak dia nak dtg umah jumpa ana, mak dgn ayah. Then, ana pun bagi janji kosong asalkan dia blah je dari situ. So, ana kata ok je la…

Selang a few days, ana takpenah call dia. Number phone tu ana letak je kat atas meja. Takpenah risau kalo number tu ilang or misplace. Pastu terjumpa dia lagi kat kedai. Dia tanye apsal takcall dia, ana ulang balik apa yg ana ckp mlm tu yang ana taksuka call org lelaki. Dia kata ana kena jugak call dia. And again I say ok. A few days passes by, ana still takcall dia. Then dia lalu depan umah, kebetulan ana ada kat luar. Dia berenti kete dia. Aduhhh mak, apa la mamat ni nak. Tetiba dia jerit tanye kat ana “kenape awak tak call saye, berhari2 saye tunggu…” ana pun dah takde reason, lagilak dia kat depan umah. Just ckp kat dia nanti ana call. Then dia pun blah. A few minutes pastu ana call dia… ntah nape dia mcm seronok je, tapi ana ah takseronok, buat mende sbb mcm terpaksa. Takde byk borak pun. So tu je la call dia. Tapi sbb after that kami byk terserempak, so at last, kitorg jadi rapat. And baru ana tau dia nye profession. Football player. Masa tu dia main dgn trg. And in the same time dia captain Malaysia. Wow!!! Tapi ntah, ana mcm taksuka je. Ntah la nape taksuka, tapi mcm takleh masuk je dgn org2 mcm ni. Tapi kitorg still kawan la… sampai abih form 5, tunggu spm result. Alhamdulillah, spm result amat lah memberangsangkan walaupun luar dari jangkaan. Taksangka lak dpt gred satu sbb trial pun dpt gred 2 nak tergelincir 3. Rezeki kot. Dapat further kat kl. And in the same time ana dpt tau ada budak pompuan kat kawasan perumahan tu pun suka dia. Minah tu selalu ah pi antar kad untuk dia, pi antar kuih. And me? I do nothing for him. Ok laaa.. I will go far pun, what do I care. Lantak ko la kan. Lagipun not my style nak gaduh2 dgn pompuan lain sbb seorg lelaki. We know there’s a relationship between us walaupun takde formal declaration. Sampai satu masa, ana duduk kl, mmg saje jauh dr dia. Dah tu, masa tu sibuk sgt org bercerita pasal football player kawin artis. Rasa diri ni kecik sgt. So, ana pun menjauhkan diri. 2 tahun berlalu… Masa bulan puasa, ana gi pasar ramadhan kat gong kapas (org trg tau la nih). Masa nak pegi tu, lalu ikut lorong umah dia. Bukan apa pun, shortcut je. Pastu Nampak kete dia. Ana pun ntah nape, cepat je tgn untuk call dia. Ana pun call, bila dia jwb phone ana mcm terdiam serba salah sbb takut dia dah kawen ke, ada awek kat sebelah dia ke.. then ana pun hang off phone. Pastu dia call balik. Oh… ana ckp helo je.. then dia terus sebut nama ana. Alamak… macam nak gugur jantung. Ahaaksss!!! Dia ingat ana lagi setelah 2tahun berlalu.

Bermula detik tu, kitorg lalui satu pengalaman baru dlm relationship. We are so close, dia pun mmg rajin bertandang ke rumah terutamanya time raya… kul 10pagi je, mmg dia la yg terpacak dulu kat pagar umah ana setiap tahun raya. Tapi kitorg nye relationship jarak jauh. Setahun tu dlm sekali 2 je jumpa. Lain2 just sms or call. Tu pun bukan every day.mcm on and off je. Kecuali masa bulan puasa la, he will rang me for sahur sbb masa tu duk hostel, housemate semua tak sahur, actually ana pun taksahur jugak, tapi dia dah call, bgn je la awal utk solat subuh and preparation untuk gi kelas. Relationship still going on. Tapi ntah la ana ni kenape, mcm takleh terima dia as my future husband. Ntah nape rasa taksesuai. Sbb dulu2 masa sekolah, penah la buat prinsip2 bodoh such as ana takkan kawen dgn org trg and so on laa… tapi bila pk2 balik… ana rasa in the 1st place ana tgk dia pun, ana takrasa dia leh jadi my real soulmate. Ntah laa… my heart just tell me like that. Tapi dia mmg my 1st love, rasa mmg mcm admire dia, suka dia… tapi mmg takleh nak buat soulmate. But in the same time I try to accept him just the he is. Hubungan kami baik, takde cacat cela, takde masalah. Family kedua2 pihak pun dah kenal. Tapi tu la, maybe bukan jodoh kami. Ada sekali tu kami pi ‘dating’ kat uptown damansara, bukan makan2 pun, just jln2 kat kaki lima sambil sembang. Ntah nape tergerak hati ana nak kuar kan satu statement utk dia. Actually, bukan statement la, tapi promise. Tetiba nak deal dgn dia satu mende bodoh… “kalau dia jumpa awek lain, and nak kawen, dia boleh buat camtu. So am i.” dia taksetuju, but then I forced him to accept. Dia mmg taksetuju, tapi ana ikut kepala ana je… konon2nye dia setuju la kan. Disebabkan dah buat deal mcm tu, baru terasa diri ni free semacam je.

Then, I know myKinG, kenal nye kenal nye kenal… we are engaged to each other. I told this mamat that I met someone else and I am really dying inside in love. Dia takcaye, takleh terima and so on la.. masa tu rasa mcm bersalah sgt, tapi bila pk2 balik… I am so sure yg dia mesti ada ramai aweks and fans laa… and I don’t know why he still chase me even I am engaged. Masa ana dah jadi tunangan org, he still call me and ask me to meet him. Once I agreed, so ana pegi la jumpa dia kat klcc utk selesaikan segala kekusutan yg melanda. I show him my engagement ring. Dia takcaye. What can I do then? Terpulang la… tapi apa la punye malang hari tu, ana parked kete kat parking sblh wisma central, kete kena pecah lak. My lovely ibm laptop kena amik. Balik la dgn keadaan sedih… sape lagi yg susah pastu? myKinG jugakkkk… hahahahhaaaaa… I get married. I did send him an invitation but he won’t appear. Its ok then… FYI, after me and myKinG get married on January 2006,this mamat also get married on August 2006. Masuk paper lagi u… dia pun invite kitorg pi wedding dia, but we cant make it. Masa tu dah taklarat nak jln2 sbb hanafi dah membesar bagai johan dlm my perut. Hehehehee… ...and now I’ve change my number then he never called. Tu je la… kebetulan, ni bulan August jugak… here, I would like to wish him happy 1st anniversary. Moga bahagia sokmo. Tu la cerita pasal my 1st love. Nak cite pasal true love ke tak ni? Hehehehhee… myKinG is my true love forever and ever.

nak suh ana tag org lain lak ke? buleh jek... nanti ek.. nanti kita kasi tag 4 org ek? sekian... thanks.